Canna Flavor of the Day: Regulator Guava Gelato Sugar Wax Music Vibes: According To You- Orianthi Hiding my body has always been normal for me. I wore things to hide my assets—oversized hoodies I could shrink into, baggy clothing so men wouldn’t think I was an easy target, or so women wouldn’t think I was showing off to their husbands. The more I could hide, the safer I felt. Learning body confidence for women isn’t about becoming someone new—it’s about unlearning the sham

Canna Flavor of the Day: Homegrown Blue Dream in a joint. Music Vibes: I'm Good-Jelly Roll I finally got to enjoy a thunderstorm & sat outside until thunder cracked just above my head. I jumped so high I nearly fell out of my chair. I yelled at OM to follow & I was out! I have way too many trees to sit outside when the storm is that close—I’m not trying to be the Wicked Witch of the East. I’ll keep my evil, witchy ways, but I don’t need a house taking me out so someone can

Every once in a while, it's good just to sit back and revel in the ridiculous things of life. There's so much ugly and yuck in the world right now that if we focus on it too much, I think we might just lose our collective minds. So I've come up with a plan. A ridiculous plan. I am going to do a series called 'The RidiculousThings of Life'. And we'll use ridiculous in three ways: 1. ridiculous as in silly, 2. ridiculous as in absurd, and 3. ridiculous as in an off-the-hook OM

Canna Flavor of the Day: Plume's Creamy Pushpop Hash Rosin Music Vibes: Drive- The Cars Guna brave our local torture chamber, Badger Mountain, with a dear friend tonight. It's not really a mountain, but it's a steep fuckin' hill that many gather around to willingly DIE.... A slow, excruciating death by… (seriously wtf are we thinking??)… climbing this steep ass hill, turn after turn, only to realize you’re not even close to the end—you’ve still got more UP to go! You keep

Canna Flavor of the Day: Mama J's Grape Train Rosin Music Vibes: Boys Will Be Boys- Dua Lupa Trigger Warning: This may be a hard read for those who have encountered trauma with dating. It pisses me off to see a victim blaming themselves for someone violating them & crossing a boundary. YOU'RE NOT IN THE WRONG. THE PIECE OF SHIT THAT DIDN'T RESPECT YOUR SPACE IS. Brave.... A word used by others to describe me many times & each is a pleasant surprise. I don’t feel brave, or

This article is a continuation of the thoughts from my previous article. You can catch up here: https://www.beautifuldisasterlit.com/post/my-backiversary-reflecting-on-the-event-of-a-lifetime-revisited It's been a year and some change since I wrote the article about my backiversary, and I forgot to talk about one very important point. Well, that's not true. I avoided talking about it. Subconsciously on purpose forgot probably. Omitting something isn't lying, but it is denial.

Canna Flavor of the Day: Inflorescense Post Melon pre-roll Music Vibes: Granite- Sleep Token Somebody, please take my credit card from me. I am not responsible enough to have money in card form, especially when I try using it to cope lol. I usually love the holidays, but I'm also always anxiously awaiting their passing. Seasonal depression is a thing for me every year. I have been feeling a bit lonely lately. (It's worse now that Daughter is out of the house & it's literall

Canna Flavor of the Day: Loud- Acai Gelly Music Vibes: Ghostface-Drayce Music Take that however you will. Just don't go cry in a corner. Overcoming life's shortcomings isn’t about perfection — it’s about showing up, learning, & moving forward no matter what hits you along the way. I'm having trouble feeling inspired today. (Funnily enough, when I revisit this article to edit & repost, I am in the same kind of funk.) Maybe smoking some Acai Gelly from Loud will help me. It's

I've been avoiding writing about a certain topic. It's going to be heavy. And embarrassing too, honestly. I don't want to write about it, but I have to. Otherwise, I won't be able to keep moving forward as a human, keep evolving. I won't be able to continue down my road of healing without getting some of this out of my system. Not sure where this will end up, but I've gotta jump in with both feet. I need to write about my drinking issues. And my drinking issues all started wi

Canna Flavor of the Day: Wicked's Jerry Berry's Hash joints. Music Vibes: Stupid by Tate McRae So this week has been a different one — starting training to be a sexual assault advocate & hearing tough stories, attending a hearing for a brave young lady & her mother, dealing with fibro pain (which is pretty consistent now), & Daughter & I binge-watching the final season of Lucifer. I 've made sure to have the house packed with snacks in the hopes of keeping both of us vampir

Canna Flavor of the Day: Mary Jones Infused Grape Drink Music Vibes: What About Us- P!nk I wrote this a while ago thinking about advise I wish I had or real life advice that I think people need. Pay attention to the ones who say they're there for you — but disappear when it matters. Pay attention to those who are. Keep in mind those people who brush you off when you say you want or need to hang out. Pay attention to those who show up. Remember the “friend” who makes you do a

Every once in a while, it's good just to sit back and revel in the ridiculous things of life. There's so much ugly and yuck in the world right now that if we focus on it too much, I think we might just lose our collective minds. So I've come up with a plan. A ridiculous plan. I am going to do a series called 'The RidiculousThings of Life'. And we'll use ridiculous in three ways: 1. ridiculous as in silly, 2. ridiculous as in absurd, and 3. ridiculous as in an off-the-hook OM

Canna Flavor of the Day: Surpernova Greasy Runtz flower rolled into a pre-roll Music Vibes: SIXX:AM - Skin When I originally wrote this, a now ex-friend had posted a very heartfelt post about people showing up, and it got me thinking about my people who have shown up and how grateful I am for them. Not to take away from how much that post touched me or the love I felt through it, I need to appreciate my own people who show up. Through the times I've felt lonely, or the tim

Canna Flavor of the Day: Diamond Tips Pre-Roll: Animal Sherbert & Raspberry Cookies Music Vibes: Holding Out for A Hero-Frou Frou I'd like to talk about how I've been applying "Trust the Process," inspired by Macie Van Fleet, hair & makeup artist, in my own life. I've been trying to let my controlling mind chill, trusting the process of my life while I search for my positivity & drive again. (It's funny that when I revisit many of my articles, they relate to my present life

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Canna Flavor of the Day: Fifty Fold's Snickerdoobie infused preroll Music Vibes: I Get Off - Halestorm The double standard of female sexuality is still deeply ingrained in how society talks about sex—men are praised for desire, while women are taught to carry shame for the very same behavior. Men are cheered on and glorified for their sexual escapades, but women are considered dirty & slutty if they enjoy sex. Guys act like a woman’s vag is suddenly “unclean” if they know s

Music Vibes: Ready for Christmas-Tabitha Meeks I originally met Sara through a Facebook group in 2020 when I first started Beautiful Disaster Lit. She & I were in a scam of a Facebook group for those wanting to start up a blog. Neither one of us got real help or support, but somehow we found each other & have been long-distance writer friends, supporting one another through life's writes & rewrites. Sara has inspired me throughout my writing journey. She had talked about wri

Canna Flavor of the Day: Stingers Frankenstein infused pre-roll Music Vibes: Unstoppable-Sia Before I go any further, I want to acknowledge that M is no longer in the boudoir business. I’ve personally spoken with women who felt hurt or wronged by their experience, and I don’t minimize or dismiss those stories in any way. I truly hope for healing and resolution for everyone involved. What I’m sharing here is my experience — one that was empowering, healing, and deeply impa

Canna Flavor of the Day: Treehaus Demon Slayer disposable Music Vibes: Ready For Myself- Nelly Furtado Doing a boudoir photoshoot with the right photographer—even if it’s just for yourself—is a huge self-love move. It was for me, at least. One of my biggest “Do It Anyway” power moves, especially after being with someone who tried to dismantle my self-worth piece by piece. This boudoir photoshoot self-confidence journey was about trusting myself, even when fear was louder t

Canna Flavor of the Day: Honey Stixx-Dark Rainbows X Blackberry infused pre-roll Music Vibes: Love Bites (So Do I)-Halestorm I love the unexpected conversations that turn deep, where a person trusts you enough to tell you their soul. It's an absolute honor to be someone's confidant & I don't take it lightly. It’s hard for me to trust people, so when someone entrusts me with their truth, I guard that trust fiercely. I've had friends, ex-boyfriends, co-workers, and old bosses