Manifesting My Life (Revisited)

Flavor of the Day: Sticky Budz Platinum Huckleberry Cookies Pre Rolls. (No mom, not actual cookies!) Listening to "Numb" by Connor Maynard & Anth.

As I worked with my amazing Business Developer to improve my website, I was given the task of revisiting old posts & making them ready for the "new & improved" website. At first, I was hesitant to lose all of the work that I'd previously done, wanting to authentically show the growth I have made in the almost four years that I've been writing & running my blog, but as I stepped back to look at the big picture, I realized that I am not losing my authenticity, I am growing & growth is always good. I have made huge strides in my writing & it's time to show the world the writer that I am, not the one that I was.

So, here I start this new journey of reading & rewriting old posts, my "Revisted" Posts. I anticipate it's like reading an old journal, laughing at the memories, feeling the emotions as I wrote each post, & remembering posts that I've long forgotten about because I'm always trying to recreate something new & just as intriguing.

As I sat on my bed with my cat, smoking & watching Manifest on Hulu (fitting!) & I decided to take the leap of finally starting the blog that I had been thinking about for quite a while. I jumped in not knowing everything that a blog entailed or how to even make a successful blog so that I could monetize enough to write full-time & travel as much as possible. I just knew that if I didn't start, I never would, so I blindly took the jump. I set up my blog & started writing. It was a journey of learning how to navigate building & running a website, writing more regularly, as well as growth in my writing & editing process. There have been a lot of yells, triumphs, & tears in the process, but in the end, I am proud of my accomplishment & only aim to be better.

People have asked the meaning of the name behind my blog and we know I'm one hot mess, but I try to promote body positivity, thus the Beautiful Disaster part of the name. The Lit has a double meaning because I like to get lit & I am writing literature, in a sense.

I'm as curious now as I was back then, wondering where the blog would take me. I'm not sure at the time that I could even imagine the strides that I have made on this ride, but I am so grateful that I have & I owe a lot of it to everyone who has supported me. I wouldn't have had the confidence to continue, if I didn't have people at my back, cheering me on.

I have so many goals now that I didn't have then. Back then, I just wanted to write a blog & eventually publish my poems. Now, I have a blog & I have so many ideas to help other writers & trauma survivors, I'll eventually publish a book (waaaayyy down the line from now) & I'll be able to run my own company.

Manifest is a really good series that was introduced to me by a one-night stand that quite literally rocked my world..... a few times. This was after he made me breakfast & got me addicted to the show that we watched when we needed a breather if you know what I mean. He was a reminder that nice, sane guys do exist & I need to not lose hope because of the assholes I've previously dealt with, or the guys that confessed their love to me after hanging out twice.

The show has some great actors, like Josh Dallas, who starred as Prince Charming in Once Upon A Time. Manifest is about people essentially surviving a plane crash, but they show back to their old lives years later, unaged as if no time has passed. Their families and friends have all lived their lives, growing older & moving on. The survivors of the plane crash return to their old lives, trying to find the normalcy they once had.

All of a sudden, they start experiencing "The Calling" & find out about "Death Day," making the plane crash survivors unique with special "powers". As they try to decipher what this "Calling" is trying to tell them, they search for a way to avoid Death's scythe on a predetermined date.

Thank you so much for reading! Please tell me your thoughts, questions, & suggestions on new blog topics.

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