This article is a continuation of the thoughts from my previous article. You can catch up here: https://www.beautifuldisasterlit.com/post/my-backiversary-reflecting-on-the-event-of-a-lifetime-revisited It's been a year and some change since I wrote the article about my backiversary, and I forgot to talk about one very important point. Well, that's not true. I avoided talking about it. Subconsciously on purpose forgot probably. Omitting something isn't lying, but it is denial.

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I've been avoiding writing about a certain topic. It's going to be heavy. And embarrassing too, honestly. I don't want to write about it, but I have to. Otherwise, I won't be able to keep moving forward as a human, keep evolving. I won't be able to continue down my road of healing without getting some of this out of my system. Not sure where this will end up, but I've gotta jump in with both feet. I need to write about my drinking issues. And my drinking issues all started wi

Canna Flavor of the Day: Honey Stixx-Dark Rainbows X Blackberry infused pre-roll Music Vibes: Love Bites (So Do I)-Halestorm I love the unexpected conversations that turn deep, where a person trusts you enough to tell you their soul. It's an absolute honor to be someone's confidant & I don't take it lightly. It’s hard for me to trust people, so when someone entrusts me with their truth, I guard that trust fiercely. I've had friends, ex-boyfriends, co-workers, and old bosses